our thought process

Its amazing to me how powerful are thoughts are. One thought at any random hour can creep in your mind forever. It was a thought late in the evening, that turned into a prayer request. Drying my hair the next morning I realized that my dreams the night before had been focused on the same thought that crossed my mind the evening prior. Why? I had let it go, I had lifted it up to God and there it was stalking me in my sleep. Somethings aren't meant to be understood, the meaning behind them can never be revealed when you expect it to. Some thoughts linger on for a lifetime and we never are able to find closure. Other thoughts, the good ones that make you wake in the morning with a smile on your face that you swear your guardian angel placed there, don't stick around for long, light hits and the thought life fades. There are those moments early in the morning the minutes between half asleep and half awake, the moments where you beg and plead with the man upstairs for whatever it is you fear to pass and with every word of prayer you ask that the Lord might protect you, that the fear to get out of bed might pass so that you can find those happy thoughts, so that you can go about your day with a smile, a smile that is real. Its those moments between our dreams and our reality that set the pace for the day and this particular morning reality was my fear.